It FeEls As ThO Av LoSt A BiG pIeCe Of Me I CaN NeVa GeT BaCk.. ApArT oF Me HaS DiEd & WhAt CaN i Do Bt CrY?

Okay So I've Just Go Through Something I Never Ever Want To Go Through Again.. But I Just Don't Know How To Deal. I Want To Cry But Won't Let Myself! I Can't See Myself Getting Over It Anytime Soon But I Also Can't See Me Dealing With It To Get Over It. I'm Lashing Out At The One Person Whos Being There For Me When I Really Don't Mean To. My Partner Saw Me Cry For The First Time On Sunday When It Happened & I Just Can't Get Over It. She Was Never Supposed To See Me Cry Lol. If She Hadn't Of Been Through Something Terrible Not So Long Ago I Know I Wouldn't Be Here! I Just See Babies & Smile Yet Wanna Cry Inside.. I Have Angry Moments When All I Wanna Do Is Get At Myself.. Cut Or anything Because Somehow This Has To Be My Fault!

I'll Be Ok In Time I Guess.. I'm Just Stuck & Down.
Meh
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